I want to be the gravity in your universe.

Sunday, October 26, 2008, 12:20:00 AM

i know i shld be sleeping but well..

read through past entries from ya, & i'm feeling kinda upset.
or rather afraid. i dunno , i'm unsure of everything.
sometimes i really hope i got the courage to ask u out.
to let you know of my feelings. perhaps,
it will makes u let me know of urs too.
long relations are hard to maintain.
wouldn't be replaced but , things changes.
changes in the sense that we no longer search for one another.
when things happens. when we felt lost in our life.
i know i really wish to search for you but ,
reality makes me feel like a stranger to you.
i just cant say anything out like i used to.
perhaps is the same as you.
but my dear , i really hope ,
sincerely hope that we will be the same as the past.
those lovely memories. those times.
however , when will that happen ?
1 week ? 1 month ? 1 yr ? 10 yrs ?

maybe both of us wont be able to take the first step.
that's why we're staying in the same position still.
at times , i feel so lost.
lost in my own world. recalling of the past.
perhaps that's the reason for why i've been going out alone.
i bother about things happen. which makes it indirectly affects me.
is rather stupid though.
but well , i just wonder how long do i need to experience such feelings.
after poly life ? after working life ? or when ?

i wanna share ur troubles, problems with you.
like how we used to perhaps. hah.
maybe we no longer have the time.
we no longer feel the same..

i know u'll read my blog .
i tend to be rather emotional , hah hah.
it is weird to express my feelings here rather den to a friend.
hah .

come to think of a friend to turn to ,
do i have one other than her ..
i miss her though.
the used to be.

i just realise i wrote some crap ):

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