i’m just so scared. scared because I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I wish so much that I did, but I don’t, and it tears me to bits. 

you mus be thinking im emo-ing again. haha, im not. i jus tot that seems quite true. occassionally i feel that way. when u dun even know what's wrong but u're jus feelin really terrible. it sounds stupid but this happens. u're lucky that u dun encounter these.

and yes i wan you to - that.

okay, maybe a little. and i honestly think there's something wrong with me.